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Our Journey


Our goal is to get pregnant and fullfill the name of this blog without spending all of our savings or taking out a loan.

So far, the procedures we've done aren't working, unfortunately.

It started in 2004, when we were married.

Shortly after that, we dropped the birth control because at that point it was fair game, bought a house and practiced with little preventing.  In 2006, we joked with friends and family that would ask us, "are you pregnant yet?" saying that we weren't preventing, just practicing.

We joked about that for about 1 year, when I talked with my OB about not being able to conceive on our own.  After a few progesterone tests, an hsg, and an sa, we were diagnosed with Unexplained Infertility.

In 2008, we did 2 rounds of clomid, 2 progesterone tests and a laparoscopy for endometriosis and nothing proved to be standing in our way.  At that point, my OB couldn't do anything more so we were sent onto a reproductive endocrinologist.

Between 2009 & 2010, we did 4 IUI's.  One with tamoxifen, 2 with clomid and the last one (costing $1,400+) with Follistim.  All failed.

Now, we are trying with a Clear Blue Fertility Monitor hoping that with patience and hope, we'll become pregnant on our own.

It's not easy, but for everyday that we are not pregnant and I get to spend with my husband and animals alone, growing our love for one another, I am thankful.

It will work, someday, just not yet.


Edited 7/2/10:

On 5/11/10, we got a BFP.

On 5/24/10, we heard the heartbeat for the first time!

On 6/15/10, we found out that our baby didn't have a heartbeat.

On 6/17/10, it was confirmed by the tech at the dr's office and from there we were scheduled for a d&c.

When we found out on 6/17/10 that our baby didn't have a heartbeat at the dr's office, we also found out that it would've been 8w3d along and it should've been 9w4d.

On 6/17/10, I also had a d&c at around 5:30pm that day.  I was in the hospital for 8 hours just doing processing, paperwork, blood draws, waiting, the procedure and then recovery.

We're hopeful for what the future holds and now we're putting all of our efforts toward that.


Edited 4/24/12:

8/29/10 - Started a regular cycle following my d&c and my scary cycle.

Started everything that we had done before: Evening Primrose Oil, Prenatals (still), Fertiaide (husband), Soy Isoflavones, preseed, Clear Blue Fertility Monitor, Flaxseed Oil, and pomegrante juice. 

9/28/10 - We got a BFP and the name "Sprout" was created for this baby.

10/8/10 - 1st appointment with the dr.  She said that I'm not high risk and that I have nothing to worry about with this pregnancy.

10/21/10 - 1st ultrasound, heard heartbeat! (7 weeks and a few days)

10/29/10 - Follow up appointment with dr.  Everything looked great!

11/22/10 - Next appointment.  Heard heartbeat again!  Still going strong! (13 weeks)

12/27/10 - 2nd ultrasound and finding out the gender! It's a BOY!

6/4/11 - Sprout's due date.

6/10/11 - Sprout's arrival.  His name is Coen and he's the love of our lives.

1/2/12 - Discovery of a positive pregnancy test.

3/29/12 - It's a GIRL!

6/10/12 - Coen's first birthday!

6/24/12 - My 30th birthday!

8/25/12 - Potential scheduled c-section date.

9/1/12 - Baby #2's due date.

More to come...


Sprout's Route:

Week 4 & 5
Week 5
Week 6
Week 7
Week 8
Week 9
Week 10
Week 12
Week 13
Week 14
Week 15


Related links:

Infertility
D and C
Miscarriage
Pregnancy


Our (journey's) Timeline (all prior to Coen's arrival):

  • 061011 - Coen's Birthday. 7 lbs 7.8 oz, 20 inches long.
  • 060911 - Ultrasound & NST.
  • 060611 - 40 Week Appointment. Stripped Membranes. 80% effaced. 1 1/2 dilated. Water bag low and ready to break.
  • 060411 - Sprout's Due Date
  • 060111 - 39 Week Appointment. Dr. had to leave to do a delivery. Saw NP. No change.
  • 052911 - Brother's 25th birthday & dinner.
  • 052911 - Sister's bridal shower.
  • 052811 - Sister's bachelorette party.
  • 052711 - Vacation Day. Much needed. Prepping for sister's weekend.
  • 052311 - 38 Weeks. 1 centimeter dilated. Barely. 50% effaced(?).
  • 052211 - Finished up Nursery Decor.
  • 051911 - Last Dentist appointment without baby.
  • 051811 - Last hair appointment without baby. Just a trim.
  • 051611 - 37 Week Appointment. Finger-tip dilated.
  • 051511 - S's aunt passed away.
  • 051311 - Work Baby Shower.
  • 050911 - 36 Week Appointment. Weekly Appointments. Dr. said I was 70% effaced.
  • 050711 - Child Birth Class.
  • 050611 - Child Birth Class.
  • 050211 - 35 Week Appointment. Everything is still good.
  • 050111 - 1st time at zoo with NEW zoo pass!
  • 043011 - Family Shower. Our House.
  • 041811 - 33 week Appointment, Everything looked and sounded great!
  • 041611 - Couples Dinner Shower.
  • 040611 - Ready to Pop (neighborhood) Shower.
  • 040211 - First Baby Shower (friends).
  • 032211 - Breastfeeding Class.
  • 032211 - 150bpm, passed glucose & bloodwork was great!
  • 031411 - Rh Shot.
  • 031211 - Glucose Test & Blood Draw.
  • 030911 - 144bpm, measuring on schedule (28 wks).
  • 030211 - 1st trip to L&D, left with script for Pepcid.
  • 030111 - Threw up twice. Lots of upper abdomen pain.
  • 022811 - 26 Week Appointment, Sprout - 154bpm.
  • 022011 - Added more to Amazon Baby Registry.
  • 020911 - BABY CRIB ARRIVED!
  • 011511 - Registered at Babies R Us.
  • 011511 - Spud's Due Date.
  • 010811 - We're having a BOY! Found out @ 19 weeks.
  • 122710 - Ultrasound & Appointment. Finding out the gender @ 17 weeks 4 days. It was modest and didn't show us anything.
  • 122210 - Nursery is painted! Serenity by Benjamin Moore.
  • 112210 - Heard heartbeat again. 151 bmp @ 12 weeks 3 days.
  • 102910 - Follow up from ultrasound. Everything is good.
  • 102110 - 1st Ultrasound @ 7 weeks 6 days.
  • 100810 - 1st appointment with dr. @ 5 weeks 6 days.
  • 092810 - BFP! We're pregnant! Did it on our own with the help of the supplements we used the first time!
  • 090110 - Back in the saddle.
  • 082910 - Aunt Flow. Present and normal.
  • 080510 - Going for an ultrasound and dr. appointment, re: bleeding.
  • 073010 - Bleeding started again, went to ER.
  • 072810 - Last day taking meds to stop bleeding.
  • 072410 - Bleeding stopped thanks for medicine.
  • 072210 - Excessive bleeding for 3 days straight. Blood work and now on prescription to control the amount of blood flow.
  • 072010 - AF ARRIVED, 1st follow d&c.
  • 070610 - Follow up with dr. re:d&c.
  • 062210 - Feeling like a new woman, finally.
  • 061910 - Worse day of recovery.
  • 061710 - Had d&c.
  • 061710 - No heartbeat. Scheduled d&c.
  • 061710 - First ultrasound with Dr. (find out the due date) @ 9 weeks 4 days
  • 061510 - Yo-yo couldn't find a heartbeat @ 9 weeks 2 days
  • 052410 - Heard the heartbeat for the first time! 160bpm
  • 051010 - POSITIVE HPT
  • 041110 - AF.
  • 032010 - 6th Year Wedding Anniversary.
  • 031510 - AF.
  • 021810 - Started using the Clear Blue Fertility Monitor.
  • 021410 - Full Flow. IUI #4 FAIL.
  • 021310 - Spotting.
  • 020310 - 1/2 ml of HcG Shot.
  • 020310 - Progesterone Test - 33.2!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • 012710 - IUI #4 at 9:00am.
  • 012710 - 1 day without being active left 96 MILLION sperm to transfer!
  • 012710 - Sperm Wash at 7:30am.
  • 012610 - No Shots, No Intercourse.
  • 012510 - 1 ml of HcG shot (active).
  • 012410 - 125 units of Follistim (active).
  • 012310 - Estradiol 480.
  • 012310 - 125 units of Follistim (active am).
  • 012310 - ultrasound and blood work.
  • 012210 - 125 (actually 225) units of Follistim.
  • 012110 - Estradiol 251.
  • 012110 - 125 units of Follistim (active).
  • 012110 - ultrasound and blood work.
  • 012010 - 125 (actually 225) units of Follistim (active).
  • 011910 - 75 units of Follistim @ 9:15pm (active).
  • 011810 - 75 units of Follistim @ 8:30pm.
  • 011710 - 75 units of Follistim @ 8:38pm.
  • 011510 - Pick up Follistim & HcG.
  • 011510 - AF.
  • 122009 - Period.
  • 121109- House Guests Move Out!
  • 111209 - Period.
  • 102009 - AF.
  • 092309 - AF.
  • 082909 - House Guests Arrive.
  • 082509 - Af is here.
  • 073009 - 4 days late. Af arrived.
  • 071109 - 071809 On Vacation (active EVERY day)
  • 062809 - AF showed up. Love her. NOT!
  • 062409 - My 27th Birthday!!
  • 061609 - Hubby is out-of-town until 061909.
  • 061509 - Active.
  • 061309 - Active.
  • 061009 - Active.
  • 060309 - Talked to dr. and because hubby is going to out of town when I would potentially O, we are taking a break.
  • 060209 - AF showed up. With NO warning. IUI #3 Failed.
  • 053109 - Tested again. BFN.
  • 052909 - Tested. BFN.
  • 052809 - Progesterone Test = 98.6 - - WOW!!!
  • 052309 - Horribly uncomfortable ovulation cramps.
  • 052109 - IUI #3 at 9:00am
  • 052109 - Sperm wash at 7:30am
  • 051909 - My uterus lining was measuring 10mm!
  • 051909 - HcG shot tonight at 9:30pm
  • 051909 - Right Ovary follicles measuring: 18 & 17, Left Ovary follicles measuring: 25, 25, 22, 20, & 20. Normal is anything above an 10.
  • 051909 - 12:30pm Internal Ultrasound with the probe!
  • 051109 - Day 5 of 100mg of Clomid
  • 050909 - Tracers and trails.
  • 050709 - Day 1 of 100mg of Clomid
  • 050509 - AF showed
  • 050409 - Progesterone Test = 4.5
  • 042609 - 2 Week Wait starts today
  • 042509 - IUI #2 at 9:00am
  • 042509 - Sperm Wash at 7:30am
  • 042309 - HcG shot in leg at 9:30pm
  • 042309 - Ultrasound to check out follicles, probe me! (15 day of my cycle) Folicles on my right ovary measured 22 mm.
  • 041109 - Start Clomid, 50mg & my 1st round of Clomid with RE. Onto IUI #2.
  • 040909 - AF started, that bitch.
  • 040109 - 2 Week Wait starts today
  • 033109 - IUI #1 at 9:00am
  • 033109 - Sperm Wash at 7:30am
  • 032909 - HcG shot in leg at 9:30pm
  • 032509 - 3pm Internal Ultrasound - Meeting the probe for the first time!
  • 032009 - 5 Year Wedding Anniversary
  • 031409 - start tamoxifen (for 5 days - - days 3-7)
  • 031309 - found out morphology results and was told we are going to be doing an IUI #1
  • 031209 - scheduled vag ultrasound
  • 031109 - Dropped of seman for critical morphology test.
  • 030109 - Thyroid results = 2.3 (normal) - onto morphology and potentially an IUI.
  • 022609 - Getting a T3, T4, T7 and thyroid antibody test done.
  • 022509 - Nurse called, thyroid is elevated (to 3.570) for what ORM likes and considers to be "normal" (2.5). More blood tests requested.
  • 022309 - Post Coital Test, Blood tests (prolactin & thyroid)
  • 021009 - AF is here.
  • 011409 - aunt flow, present.
  • 121908 - af is here.
  • 112208 - started taking evening primrose oil 3 times a day...
  • 112108 - Af is here.
  • 102508 - Dh's 31st Birthday
  • 102308 - Fuck. Af is here. Fucking Bull Shit. Argh!!!!!!!!!!
  • 100208 - started taking robitussin
  • 092508 - af is here. bitch.
  • 091808 - 1st apt with orm - consultation apt
  • 090908 - Started Weight Watchers at Work
  • 090408 - post op apt - everything looks good and has healed properly. next step = go to orm (ohio reproductive medicine)
  • 082808 - af is here. glad she's someone that i can always depend on... that bitch.
  • 081608 - positive opk
  • 081208 - starting Optivite PMT
  • 080708 - lap day for endo, wish me luck
  • 080308 - af. bitch. hate her.
  • 073108 - meet with dr about lap
  • 071508-072408 - Go Time!
  • 071408 - called dr to schedule laparoscopy, awaiting a call back.
  • 070908 - going strong. staying positive. making this month MY month.
  • 070708 - af. here. loud and proud. bitch.
  • 062408 - My 26th Birthday!!
  • 062308 - dr said laparoscopy for endo or see an infertility specialist. still undecided on what I'm going to do.
  • 060808 - af arrived. AT the pool while on vacation! completely unwanted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • 051408 - af arrived. unwanted.
  • 051208 - still on a "mental" break
  • 042108 - mentally "taking a break" - trying to have more fun than work.
  • 041708 - af arrived.
  • 041608 - bfn
  • 040908 - 4th progesterone test 31.1 - Holy crap that's high!!!!!!!!!!
  • 040308 - faint positive opk
  • 040208 - strong positive opk
  • 040108 - positive opk
  • 032208 - started clomid round #2
  • 032008 - af. happy anniversary!
  • 031408 - 3rd progesterone test 21.3
  • 030808 - positive opk
  • 030708 - positive opk
  • 022508 - started clomid round #1
  • 022208 - af.
  • 022208 - dr called. sa was good. diagnosed as UNEXPLAINED INFERTILITY.
  • 022108 - sa test - normal
  • 021208 - 2nd progesterone test 15.3
  • 013008 - hsg - my pipes were all clear
  • 012908 - started blogging
  • 012308 - af started
  • 11 2007 - talked to dr. about complications and not being able to become pregnant - 1st progesterone test
  • 082907 Oscar died. Very very sad.
  • 12 2006 - buckled down and started trying
  • 09 2006 - practicing and not protecting
  • 07 2004 - bought our house
  • 06 2004 - off bcp
  • 032004 - married

Comments

Lindsey Smith said…
I am touched by your story, your so positive and upbeat. Thank you for your attitude:)

I just have to tell you this story because I think I should:) I had a friend that was trying for 5 years to get pregnant and they never did, they had all the tests and there was nothing wrong with them at all. After 5 years out of the blue they got pregnant. Their little girl was born and after the delivery something was very wrong with the baby. The medical industry had just come out with a new device that could save their little girls life and it had been available to the public for 5 weeks. That piece of equipment saved their little girls life. Had they had their little girl when they had planned she wouldn't have lived. My friend then told me that at that point she knew that God had a plan for her and her little girl and that he had perfect timing. For 5 years she asked why and now she knew.

I hope this story doesn't offend you but it made such a huge impression on me I though I would tell it to you. Thanks again for showing such strength and courage in light of something that could be all consuming. Your such a good example for the rest of us!

I'm Lindsey and my blog is lindseyandriley.blogspot.com
Pam said…
Your story rings to close to home. We tried for 5 1/2 years before, with loads of medical help, we were able to conceive our first. It was a long hard road but man, I learned so much about myself, my strength and my marriage. I grew up. It prepared me to best the best mom I could be. Since then we were blessed with twins as well, with more help and a loss in between.

I would not wish infertility on anyone but you are living it, and you are a strong woman. I wish many happy healthy babies in your future.
Janet said…
I came across your blog through the faces of loss page. Thanks for sharing your story and sorry for your loss. I totally understand the rollercoaster of infertility treatments! My husband and I started with treatments 3 years ago. 6 IUI's and 4 IVF's later we got pregnant wtih twins! We were so excited, after all the trying we were going to be parents and to two babies! This past August I was almost 23 weeks and lost them to premature labor. It was our worst nightmare and crushed us completely! So now we are having to jump back on the rollercoaster that we thought we were never going to have to go on it again! I am hoping I can get some of your strength and hope and be able to move forward and have hope again that we will have our family someday, hopefully soon! email me if you ever want to chat. Jmak776@aol.com
Jen said…
I came across your blog through another and just wanted to say congratulations and let you know that your story has touched me. I'm a blessed mom of one, and facing secondary infertility. I appreciate your openness and honesty. I just started my own blog hoping to have a place to share our family's story and get out a few feelings about what we're going through. Congrats again!

-Jen

http://lifeandlovewiththebradleys.blogspot.com/
*Mandie* said…
Hearing stories like yours gives me so much hope! :-)

DH and I have been off BCP's since July 2009. I started charting in December 2009, and we soon started realizing something was wrong. While trying to figure out why we weren't pregnant, I was diagnosed with fast-growing cervical pre-cancer (I was only 29 at the time). In the meantime, we thought we'd just go ahead and adopt; but finances stopped us in our tracks.

Months later, and I'm healthy again. We're trying again too, and seeing a fertility specialist. We're still in the early stages; so, we're hopeful but cautious.

Thank you for sharing your story. Many blessings to you, and I hope that little "Sprout" is happy and healthy come June!

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