Thursday, November 7, 2013

Grateful

Why is it that when November comes, we force ourselves to remember how many things in our lives we are thankful for?  Why can't we do that throughout the whole year?  Why does it happen now?  Just because Thanksgiving is on the horizon and we like to remember those things around that holiday?

Well, with all of that said, I'm going to try and commit.  To sharing my top 3 things that I'm grateful for whenever they come up throughout the year.

Today, I'm starting.

I got this email from BlogHer about NaBloPoMo and every day they are giving topics to help prompt reasons to write... Today, it's perfect.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

So, to continue why I'm grateful...

Today, I'm thankful for my quiet time with Coen at the end of the day.  We always put the kids to be together (or at least we try) and what usually happens is we play and read in Coen's room.  We have Emie give kisses to everyone and the I depart with Emie to nurse her and put her down.  As I'm leaving Coen's room, I promise him that daddy will leave the light on and that I'll be back to snuggle before he goes to bed.  Daddy usually wraps things up with Coen, leaves his light on and as I put Emie down, I go in there to snuggle with him before he goes to bed.  I have found that in those moments, I'm reminded of how precious his little life is and how fast he learns and how much he enjoys just talking to us.  He has gotten in a habit of unwinding and just likes to talk about his day and things that happen throughout it.  No real rhyme or reason, but just talking.  Watching his mind work and hearing what he has to say makes me remember how much I take for granted how awesome my child is and how much I miss one on one time with him.  So, today, in this moment, I want to say thank you for letting Coen come into our lives and continually be such a joy.

I am also grateful for our church.  We struggle with our relationship with God and a relationship with a church community, but ever since joining the community of Grace, we haven't had that feeling cross our paths.  Last Sunday, just like most Sunday's... I felt like the Pastor was just sitting one on one with Sean and I.  He spoke words that felt like he knew exactly what was going on in our home and our relationship and he was spot on.  Sean and I are opposites.  We have noticed that more and more lately.  We have some things in common, but overall, we just operate at different levels and it's not a bad thing... just sometimes we clash.  It's okay.  We work well together but sometimes we are just on such extremes that it makes whatever is going on worse more so than better.  Anyway, when we walked into church and heard that sermon, I was reminded that while things really suck right now, I should have faith that it will all work out.  It's going to take time, we're going to struggle and we'll probably fall down, but that we'll get back up and it will survive.  Without our church and our Pastor, I don't know that I would've gotten to that point so quickly and so, with that, I want to say thank you.  Thank you for coming into our lives and for sticking out the ugly side of life with us.

Lastly and on a lighter side of all of this... I wanted to say how thankful I am for my walk-station at work. While I'm reaching a new high on body temperature at work, I can feel that it's healthy for me and making me feel good about myself.  I'm beyond thankful for the physical activity I've been getting over the last 8 months with jazzercise, but with the added bonus of walking, lately... I'm even more thankful.

More will unravel as it comes up and I hope to continue to do this throughout the year and not just November, too.  I plan to journal 3 things that I'm grateful for per day and I encourage you to do the same.  It's healthy that even through the bad, you remind yourself that you're thankful to be here living this life and experiencing these emotions.  They may not always be the best or the most pleasant, but there are worse situations that you could be in... so, with that, go write them down.  Start today.  Journal when you're able and just remember.  It will change your life.

So, in closing... What would I love to change about myself?  To be grateful today, everyday and everyday after that.  Always expressing it, not bottling it up and continuing to share with myself that I am loved and that I love myself.  As humans, we long for appreciation.  This is hands-down something that I struggle with DAILY.  It's human, but still.  I need it.  So, what am I changing?  I'm changing the idea that I should be appreciated and that people should appreciate me or that they should constantly share that with me.  I'm changing my mindset and remembering that I have to give in order to receive. 

1 comment:

M said...

in tradition of november i recently read a quote that I loved and have written down at home: "if the only prayer we ever say is Thank You, that would be enough"meister eckhart

it helps to remind us to be thankful/grateful all year long....even when bad things come your way there is always something to be thankful for!