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My girl

Two things about these pictures.

1. I can't believe I have a daughter.  If you ask my husband, he will tell you that having a girl wasn't really on the top of my list, or I wouldn't express that verbally because we had Coen and he was a great little boy and because that was all I knew, I just assumed that the second one would be a boy too.  When I think about having a daughter, I think about all the time that I've spent with my mom and the relationship that I have with her and my sister... It's irreplaceable and I'm thankful for those friendships that we've created over the years.  So, thinking about Emie and what our future will look like, I'm going to be blunt and admit that I'm a little scared of the middle to high school age, but I know that after that, we'll be good.

Emie is the sweetest little baby and if she takes after her brother in any way, she's been a very sweet toddler too.  She's always so happy and I can't help but think that it reminds me of me... always laughing and being happy.  It's fun watching both of my children grow up, but with Emie 14 months behind Coen and really starting to find her personality, it's going to be a lot of fun to watch it all unfold.

And, those mother daughter moments that are in my future, I'm very much looking forward to those.

Can you believe how long she looks in this pictures?!?  I know she's doubled her birth weight, but geez-la-weez!

2. I can't help but look at myself in both of these pictures and think that I look just about the same... size, thickness, heaviness, etc... I need to work on this because with all the before and after pictures going around, I'm pretty sure that this one wouldn't get that many compliments sent way.  Losing weight is not easy.  Eating right, all the time is not good when all I can think about is eating a snickers when I'm stressed out.  Time will help me and eventually I'll get on the right path, but for now... I'm just living with what it is.


Andrea said…
I have to admit that I'm really looking forward to the mother/daughter relationship with Gabriella. I only grew up with a mom and she was my best friend so I have always hoped and dreamed for a daughter of my own. I know there will be some rough times ahead of us but I just keep looking forward to all those moments you only get to share with a girl.

And certainly don't be too hard on yourself about weight loss!! At Gabby's first birthday party I was still chubbing out. I believe every person just has a turning point and all good decision stem from there. I'm a SUGAR addict...I can't go a couple of days without some sort of dessert so I totally understand your Snickers cravings :) Don't be too hard on yourself. She's still a tiny babe, you're breastfeeding and on top of it all, you're juggling two small kids! Take it easy, they are only young for so long and you'll always have time to get in shape. Plus, being a mom is the most beautiful thing ever so if you ever feel icky (like I OFTEN do) just remind yourself of the miracles your body made :)
maydaygirl said…
What?!??! U don't look even remotely the same size!! U look great!!

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