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Review of 2nd C-Section and more

Hi, my name is Jill and I had two c-sections in 14 months.

Saying that now, seems so funny.  I remember having Coen and thinking that I wanted another baby in my life, so fast.  I also remember my doctor telling me that I really needed to wait another 6 months before getting pregnant again, just to give my body some time to heal.

Five months later, we were expecting.

Having two c-sections in 14 months was hard.  Don't get me wrong... I mean, it's a major surgery! However, this second time around, I really didn't feel as bad as I did with the first.  I don't know if it was because I was forced to be active again quickly after being home (and having a toddler that doesn't stop) or if it was because I knew what to expect.  Either way, I could tell that by 2 weeks postpartum, I was starting to feel like myself again.  Sure, my stomach is sore, my pants don't fit and dressing myself isn't as fun as it could be, but it's better.

Will I have another c-section?  I'm on the fence about this.  Because I went into labor on my own both times, I'd like to believe that when we have a third child it would happen again, on it's own.  But, will it progress differently than it did when laboring with Coen?  Who knows.  Will I want to give it a try to see if it would work?  Probably.  Will my dr. allow me to do a VBAC?  Yes.  Do I need to do more research on this topic? Yes.  Will a c-section happen as a result of trying a VBAC?  Maybe, but I might be willing to give it a try, just to see how it would all turn out.  I'm beyond disappointed that I didn't have a natural delivery like I had wanted the first time around.  It broke my heart to have to do a c-section but it's what ended up being the best for everyone in our situation. 

After two c-sections in 14 months, my body doesn't like me much and I realize this.  I realize that the more c-sections I have, the riskier it gets for everyone and that scares me a lot.  Having a VBAC has the same sort of risks, so that's where I'm at right now.  On the fence about how the next delivery will go.

What helped me get through this second c-section is remembering everything from my first... Knowing that laughing hurt.  Knowing I needed to get up and get moving when they told me.  Knowing that I couldn't stay in bed after I was released from the IVs and that getting a shower was so much more refreshing than painful.  I also had to remember that the staples were uncomfortable but that they weren't permanent.  I also had to remember that I probably wasn't going to be staying in the hospital for 7 days and it would be shorter, so to bounce back quickly was only in my favor.  Going home and needing a lot of help wasn't going to be an option this time.  We had help, but I was going to be alone for my maternity leave, verses at home with S. the whole time, so I had to recover a lot quicker.

Nursing went so well from the get-go that it was such a relief.  I didn't have the nervousness about it like I did with Coen.  Both of my kids have been great at nursing, but with Coen it was all of the unknown that threw me off.  Emie has been a walk in the park, aside from a few nights of spitting up (what seemed like) everything.

I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight.  Clothes are not fitting right as I have this muffin-top that just doesn't work with a lot of my clothes. 

Out of frustration the other day, I took all of my maternity items out of my closet and a trash bag full of clothes I didn't want to look at anymore... Only to then realize that I didn't have any pants to wear aside from yoga/stretch/leggings... and hardly anything suitable for work.  I have one pair of jeans that work and a boat load of tops, but my closet is pathetic.  Being pregnant for 2 years kills your sense of style and your wardrobe.  I have to go shopping but trying on clothes in sizes you don't want to buy, isn't any fun. 

And speaking of buying new clothes... I also need to start a workout routine that will help me get into a size of clothes that will actually make me feel good.  Right now, it's not looking good, but I need something to hold me over until I'm feeling better about my body.  Guess I'm going to have to hit up some sale racks to get me by, until then.

I really want to run a 5k in March for St. Patty's day.  I just think it would be the perfect weather for running and it would be fun and festive at the end because it ends at this big St. Patty's festival that the kids would love.  I thought that would be great until I realized that I would have to train for this 5k in the winter.  I love running in cooler weather but not the dead of winter.  Now, I've done this before.  I did a snowflake 5k once in December and while it wasn't terribly cold then, it was raining and boy did that just kill the motivation.  Did I finish? Yes.  Did I walk at some point during the run? Yes.  Was I soaked from head to toe and hating life at the end? Yes.  Would I do that again?  No.  Running in the rain, sucks.  Especially if you have to run in puddles.

I thought about doing the 30 day challenge from Jillian Michaels.  I have the DVD, but I don't know when I would do it.  I'd have to think about this because I don't really have that many places in our house that I could even pull it off, but then again, times of day to do it would also hinder a routine of doing it too.   Not a good excuse, I know.  I think this could be a good way to ease into a routine, too.

Something will give here soon.  Some sort of routine will start and then I'll start to love my body again.  Right now, it's not pretty and makes it hard to feel good about myself, but I know it will get better.  I'll keep you updated on what I'm doing.  Until then...





Comments

Molly said…
I say give yourself some time to decide about the VBAC. The option is always there for you to try!

And about the 30-day shred. It is so short. You can do it. It's hard but I'm already seeing a difference at day 15.
J o s e y said…
Hm...the 30 Day Shred. I think I need to start back up on that! Thanks for the inspiration!

Definitely give yourself time to decide on the vba2c - I have friends who have done it and loved it, but it's a hugely personal decision for sure!
mimomma said…
If you have a ymca near you I love having a membership to it. They have free childcare for 1.5 hours which is great because I can work out and take a shower and dry my hair...it's amazing!

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