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I'm wearing a side pony today.  Not because I thought I would look cute but because my hair on the left side of my head has a lot of layers and makes it nearly impossible to pull back and this is the only solution.I realized yesterday that I need to pack my hospital bag.  I'll be writing a post about this because it'll be a little different than last time.Just a minute ago, I thought I was starting to feel Braxton hicks again, so I'm increasing my water intake, stat.I hated the lunch that I packed for today, not to mention the fact that I ate 1/2 of it for breakfast.  So I went to the store and got canned soup, a bagel, an apple and two chocolate chunk cookies.  It was a delicious meal.  My frozen will have to wait for another day.Yesterday, I went to a concert at our state fair.  It was Colbie Caillat who opened for Gavin DeGraw.  It was enjoyable, but not one I would add to the top of my list.  Gavin was a lot more theatrical and interactive with the audience than I …

35 Weeks | Baby Bump

How far along: 35 weeks. (From the Bump) Growing, growing, growing. Yup, baby and you. You’ve reached 35 weeks, and your uterus has grown about 1,000 times its original size, a number that might sound exaggerated to everyone else -- but to you it probably feels more like a million. You can expect to gain about a half-pound a week before birth, and baby’s beefing up, too. At 35 weeks, some moms-to-be feel like they have a ton of stuff left to do before baby’s arrival. Others can barely wait for baby to make his debut. Either way, try not to stress. Baby will show up when he’s ready, and he won’t care if you haven’t checked every little detail off your list. He's about 17.2 to 18.7 inches. From here on out, he won't get much longer, but he's plumping up. He's now about 4.2 to 5.8 pounds, and he'll put on a pound or more of baby fat before birth. Now, his hearing is fully developed, and he responds best to high-pitched noises.
How big is baby: The size of a coconut.

say no

Being an adult can really get you down sometimes.  Especially when you are just forced to spend money that is completely outside of your means and then before you know it, you're scrounging around for every penny possible to make ends meet.

We live pretty comfortably.  We spend what we need to spend, we can be really thrifty and when we want to do something special for our family or our house, we plan and then we spend.  Sometimes (or some months) get a little out of control and force us to spend outside of our normal budget and while we make do, it hurts.  When you do this several months in a row, it begins to really sting.

Just in the last month, we've been to 3 weddings.  Weddings, might be the death of our bank account.  Two years ago we were invited to 13 weddings, last year we were invited to 9 weddings (and one of them I was in) and this year we're invited to 5 weddings (and one of them S. was the Best Man).  Between attending a shower or helping to host any pre-wed…

34 Weeks | Baby Bump

Here I am last pregnancy with Coen at 36 weeks.   I remember wearing this dress and starting to hate life around this time.  Oh the memories...
How far along: 34 weeks. (From the Bump) Watch what you say! Your curious baby is listening in to your conversations at 34 weeks -- and might enjoy a lullaby or two -- so go ahead and sing to him. Some say that baby will recognize songs mom sings while he’s in the womb, and may even be more easily soothed by them if he’s used to them once he’s on the “outside.” At week 34, you might breathe a little easier, since baby may descend lower into your pelvis and give your lungs some space. (Ahh!) Of course, some babies don’t do this until the day they’re born, so we’re not making any guarantees. The pitfall of this descent, of course, is even more pressure on your bladder, so be prepared to make even more trips to the ladies room over the coming weeks. At less than two months to go, he weighs in at about 4.2 pounds to 5.8 pounds and measures about 17…


I'm worried.

I worry about a lot of things.

As this pregnancy starts to come to an end, my anxiety levels have started to escalate to another level of worry.  I had some worry with Coen, but we had planned for a very natural delivery, we didn't get worried until we were faced with blood pressures that were rising and then the emergency c-section that was the end result and while completely necessary, it was scary.

Going into this one a little less-blinded, it still makes me nervous.

Unlike last time, when I couldn't read this book... My worries are much different. I still haven't read it and being pregnant again made me less likely to read it again.  I will get to it, but it will have to wait a few more months.

I worry about Coen.  Where will he be?  Will he be at home?  Will he be okay?  Will he wonder where I am?  Who will be with him?  Will he sleep okay?  Eat okay?  When he sees me in the hospital, will it be okay?  Will he cry for me when he leaves because we'…

Boy Mom BlogHop

I'm linking up with The M.O.B. Society's Boy Mom BlogHop and heard about the link up from A Day in Mollywood.  So, if you're a mom to boys (or a boy), then you should link up too!

Here's my boy... just days after he arrived and I became a boy mom.


I'm Jill and this is my blog about my family (and our journey to building our family).

We are the Happy Hopefuls.

My blog started as a light fluffy blog about nothing, really and it developed (quickly) into a journal about our infertility trials and tribulations.  I started blogging in 2008 and have blogged (almost) consistently since then.  Our journey to create our family wasn't a fun ride.  There were a lot of doctor's appointments, medicines, needles, ultrasounds and money involved.  When it finally happened for us, I had taken a more holistic approach and it worked!  Unfortunately, we miscarried (6/2010), but we tried the same method again and it worked just 2 months later.

June 10, 2011 is the day …

Bottle to Sippy Cup Progression...

We gave Coen his first bottle at about 6 weeks.  It was close enough to the time that he'd have to take one full time at the sitter, but long enough on the breast that I felt like he wouldn't get confused about breast vs. bottle.  We started with an Avent bottle that we had registered for and started with a 0 sized nipple.  It allowed for flow, but nothing overwhelming and he took it just fine.

As time went on, we upgraded the size of the nipple to allow for more airflow.  This is a statement that not a lot of new moms know about, so if you've gone through this process and know the difference between a 0 and a 4, please share that with another new mom.  You surely don't want to keep your baby on a 0 sized nipple until they are 6 months old.  They will get very frustrated with you!

At about 6 months, we introduced a sippy cup.  We were told by our peds dr to get a training sippy cup first to ease them into the idea.  We did this and while it wasn't successful for us…

Breastfeeding | The End

It is very sad for me to share with you that my breastfeeding journey has ended.

I could tell it was going to stop soon, but I wasn't sure how it was all going to go down.  We had been supplementing with a bottle in the mornings and it was getting to a point that if I didn't offer him to nurse before he could see the bottle, then he would not nurse because he wanted the bottle.

I know that the introduction of a bottle can be detrimental to a breastfeeding mom, but he wasn't getting it at that time so I thought that if I had to do it from time to time that it would just be okay but it wouldn't be his preferred.  Boy was I wrong. 

We had about 3 days without any interest in nursing, a day with nursing, then 3 days without and then we tried one more time and by that time it was apparent he was not having his needs met and the bottle was going to be the only thing to fix it.  So, we just did that and then our nursing relationship was over.  Just cut off like that.


33 Weeks | Baby Bump

Just 6 weeks left!

How far along: 33 weeks. (From the Bump) We’d tell you to take a deep breath and relax, but it’s probably tough to do either of those at 33 weeks. It’s probably tough to be comfortable at all, since you might be feeling overheated on top of your other symptoms, too. But you’re probably getting super excited to meet baby, and we can’t blame you. Week 33 is a good time to make sure you have a safe car seat for baby -- go ahead and install it already. Sure, you might not see baby for another month, but if you have an early surprise arrival, that’s the one thing you really need to have ready.
How big is baby: The size of a Durian Fruit.
Weight gain/loss: I'm up 23 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Yes.  Of course.  But trying to be a little less frequent with straight  up maternity clothes.
Stretch marks: Yep.
Sleep: Going much better than normal, but getting out of bed is starting to get harder and harder.
Diet/Cravings/Aversions: I just can't eat as much I used to... but i…

No More Bottles

At Coen's 12 month appointment, we were told to wean him off formula, transition him to milk and then wean him from bottles.  Both of those things needed to happen between 12 to 18 months, but the sooner the better.

Transitioning him to milk was no problem.  He prefers that it's warmed up a bit, but outside of that, takes it like a champ.  We had to mix the formula for a bit but when we didn't, he didn't notice either.

Then Monday, I suggested that S. just do a sippy at naptime to see if he would take it and he did!  So then the rest of the day, he got milk in a sippy before his naps and bedtime and we didn't do bottles.  Tuesday continued the same way and then Wednesday as well.

S. actually mentioned that Coen was more interested in his cold sippy of milk after his nap than he was with having it beforehand... but still no struggle to take it down.  Just did it.

Is it really that easy?

I realized going into this transition, it was going to be harder on me than on …

32 Weeks | Baby Bump

A hot sweaty mess from being at the zoo for 3 hours when it's like 90+ degrees outside... so forgive my sweaty face... and boy does my belly look strange when I'm carrying Coen!
How far along: 32 weeks. (From the Bump) At 32 weeks, baby’s birth still seems kind of far away, but you and baby are physically ready in a lot of ways, just in case there’s an early arrival. Baby may have turned so she’s in the head-down position by now, poised for her trip down the birth canal. And you may have noticed your nipples looking darker. That’s so a preemie can see them for breastfeeding -- isn't your body so amazing? Intensity might be building in the symptoms department, as heartburn and contractions intensify around week 32. But we’re guessing you’re so excited about baby’s impending arrival, they’re not slowing you down much.
How big is baby: The size of a squash.

Weight gain/loss: I'm up 20 lbs.
Maternity clothes: Um, yes.  When I have to, but more times than not, it's usually…


Today, I attended a funeral for a high school friend's child.

He was 20 months old.

I know that in the blogland that there are a number of parents who have lost a child for one reason or another.  I myself, have lost a child at 9 weeks and there isn't a day that goes by that doesn't make me wonder what it would've been like to carry that child to term and meet them face to face.

This child, was beyond term.  He was healthy, bright, happy, and beautiful.

All it took was a minute for him to be gone.

His service was this morning and while I was a blubbering snotty crying mess...I was glad to attend and to be there to show my support to his parents and my friend.

No parent should ever outlive their children.

It was a tragic accident that made him leave this world far too early and while I never met him, I couldn't help but feel so much pain and sorrow for his parents and his family.  This was their only child and he was absolutely beautiful.

If you have children, educa…


All this effort to get one picture and I just couldn't get it.
Remember when he was tiny, I could sit him up or put him down anywhere and he would stay there and smile... or just look cute?  Those days are long gone, I'm afraid...
This boy is just getting harder and harder to capture, but still cute as heck.


I cannot believe that I went through this whole post on my 30th week of pregnancy and didn't think about how I'm going to be 30 weeks on my 30th birthday!  That's so fun and I totally missed it.
Oh well...  Happy 30th to me and happy 30 weeks!
Can you believe I only have 8 weeks (really hoping for 7 weeks left) now that I'm going to be 32 weeks on Friday!?!?!  Crazy.

Coen, 12 months!


This month, we celebrated your 1st birthday!  Can you believe it?  You're 12 months old!  I'm not going to lie, it took me a while to come to grips with this, but I had to keep reminding myself of all the joy you bring me in all the things that you're growing and learning to do.  And get over the fact that you weren't my tiny little baby anymore.  You're still my baby, don't get me wrong, but you're not the little 7lb 7.8oz baby that we brought home in 2011.

I did cry when we put you to bed for your nap the day before your birthday and we took pictures with you just before you went to be that evening, because it was just making me so emotional and I didn't want to forget it.

On your birthday, it was busy and crazy, but you did amazing!  We had a lot of friends and family in our house but you were stellar.  You didn't fussy (until it was time for your nap) and you went to just about everyone who wanted to hold you at the party without any majo…