Tuesday, May 8, 2012

the last amount


Today is sad because today, Coen receives the last portion of breast milk at the sitter that I had pumped and kept frozen for him.

Yesterday was even worse, when I realized that I was sending off the last portion of breast milk that I had in the house, to the sitter.  It really hit me hard and I had a hard time coming to grips with it...

So, after today, he'll mainly be a formula baby but then I had to remind myself that he's still nursing in the mornings.  He hasn't totally stopped this nursing session and that's perfectly fine with me, however, I imagine that sometime soon, this might be totally cut off and that makes me really sad.

I'm really going to miss my nursing relationship with Coen and already really do.  Making a formula bottle is just annoying and time consuming to what I used to be able to do to feed him.  He's very patient while I make the bottle, but it's still, just not the same.

These pregnancy hormones have made this transition, not only happen sooner that I had wanted it to happen, but also a lot harder than I thought it would be on me, emotionally.

Today is a sad day, but I'll make it through.

1 comment:

molly said...

Try not to feel bad. You have done a WONDERFUL job for your boy. I can definitely relate though. I had to quit at 5 months for very different reasons but I really struggled with my emotions.