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no vbac

When I went into labor with Coen, I had just left my dr.'s appointment and based on my blood pressure and non-stress test results, they wanted me to go to the hospital to get checked out and monitored.  She had also done a more "invasive" internal exam that (apparently) stirred some things up and basically started my labor.  When I arrived, I felt fine.  After a little bit (getting undressed, putting a robe on and getting into bed), I felt as though I constantly had to poop (TMI, sorry) but nothing was happening.  Thinking about this time and what I was saying, makes me laugh because clearly there wasn't a log in the shoot, I was actually in real-deal labor.

We had every intention of striving for a natural labor, complete from beginning to end with no drugs.  I had read a ton of books, experiences, asked 1,000 questions, attending birthing classes and when it all came down to it, I thought we were as ready as we were going to be.  When labor started, I had eye of the tiger going in my head and it was game time.  I was just going to power through and get it done.

Here's our original non-birth plan, our updated non-birth plan and our actual birth story.

As you may have already read, the natural birth we were hoping for didn't happen. I did labor for 11 hours without an epidural or pitocin and that was a huge accomplishment!  Although, when things started to turn (a little) upside down, we had to change our plan and go with what was suggested. 

Coen ended arriving by emergency c-section, 3 hours later.

Going into this labor, I hadn't read a thing about c-sections... well, in the since that I had for natural births/labors.  So, when I was faced with this "emergency c-section" scenario, it was all a little wild and there were a lot of things that I just wasted prepared for, but we can't go back now.  It was all about getting Coen out safely and having my survive it all too.  And we did that.

Now, pregnant again with pregnancy #2, I worried about how this baby would arrive.  I had talked about trying a VBAC after my c-section with Coen, mainly because I really wanted to experience that "natural birth" experience.  It was something I was really hopeful about, but obviously, it just wasn't in the cards.

Since we got pregnant so quickly after having Coen, we (I) decided that it's just best to go forward with another c-section.  Not because I'm not allowed to have a VBAC, but personally, I feel as though I would've rather wanted to heal more before actually trying a VBAC.  Maybe that's not the only thing that would stand in my way, but since I feel as though my body is still healing from the last one, I wouldn't want to do is to cause more pain by trying something foreign, when I know the c-section will work just fine.

So, no VBAC for me. But, maybe next time.


I was told at my last appointment (on Monday) that I would schedule my c-section date at my next appointment.  Seems so early, but it will be nice to have a date in mind...

Which brings me to the topic of how labor will "go down" this time around???  Will I have a baby that will be as reluctant to evacuate as Coen was or will she want out early?  Will I actually go into labor or will I just arrive at the hospital for my c-section?  If labor happens, will it be early or right around my potential delivery date?  Or will I be at home?  Will I be at work?

A lot of unknown issues that I think about from time to time and can't help but think.... Well.  I guess it's just out of my control and I'll have to wait to see how it all plays out.  Should be interesting.

Can you believe I only have 4 months until August 25th, from today, exactly?  Wild.


On a side note...  This time last year, this is what I looked like.... Week 33, update.


Mrs. Dirnberger said…
My scheduled C section was GOD sent!!! I was scheduled, well rested teh night before, went in and started my IV and then to surgery. I wasnt' tired from laboring and refreshed. I recovered easier too. It is nerve racking but soooo much more relaxed and easier!
Allison said…
I had a good experience with my scheduled C-section. For some reason, the thought that I'd go into labor before it didn't really cross my mind! lol

I can't believe you're only 4 months from your due date--crazy.
Your due date is Aug 25?!? That was my due date last year but my sweet little girl came via emergency c section on the 23rd! Good luck to you!

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