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It finally hit me...

I'd been really strong through our pregnancy.  I hadn't really expressed a lot of emotions through it all that would show how grateful I was to finally be pregnant and no longer struggling to become pregnant.

I hadn't really cried about it, because I was so overjoyed that excitement always overpowered tears.

Then Coen arrived and I lost it.

I lose it, just about every day.

I look at him and think, Oh. My. Gosh.  This baby is mine.  This beautiful little being, my husband and I created.  This little boy loves me so much that I will never know any other kind of love.  My little sweet baby, that I carried for 9 months, is here.

And then I just cry.

Tears of joy that I just cannot stop.  Tears that I had kept inside for so many months because I just wanted to be strong.

It's just an emotion that I've been dying to express and now I get to look at my little boy be reminded of this joy, daily.

It's overwhelming.  My husband always reminds me that I'm allowed to be emotional, because it WAS emotional.  Now that Coen is here, it's just like the flood gates were opened.

Very emotional.  Very moving.

We did it!  We have a little baby boy that fills our hearts with love.

I love you babe and I love you to the moon and back, Coen.


Bethany said…
Just beautiful!! Congratulations!
IVF Again! said…
Isn't it amazing? I was the same way and I am still the same way. Stella's fifteen months and I still go up to her bedroom on occasion after she has fallen asleep to just hold her a little longer and I just cry tears of joy because I am so lucky to have her. I remember all those nights I wish I had her in my life while we were trying. We are so lucky!
Mrs. Dirnberger said…
YOur cup runneth over....I LOVE it :) You deserve it
Andrea said…
That was so beautiful! I'm so happy for you :)
Jeannie said…
Beautiful!! Congratulations on your beautiful boy :)
Andrea said…
And it will keep hitting you over and over again... I still get all teared up when I stop and just stare at him, not sure if that will ever go away!
This gives me the chills for you. How beautiful.

Again, congrats to the both of you....I am SO happy for you guys!!
Leah said…
I love everything about this post.
Anonymous said…
I was wondering all this time how in the hell you were keeping it together. I loved reading this post. It's so raw and beautiful. Enjoy your gift from God.
Sarah said…
I cannot even express how happy I am for you guys! I have followed your blog for nearly 3 years and you've always been in my prayers to be blessed with your own baby and WOW!! He's here! It's amazing, really. You have every right to be emotional. My son is 16 months old and I STILL get tears in my eyes when I remember his birth. Hugs to you.
molly said…
Awwww, how wonderful. It is a very life-changing emotional thing. I'm glad you're finally releasing all those emotions.

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