How am I feeling? I’m still feeling really good. I’m not having any back issues like I was a few weeks ago and those pains have still stayed away through the last few weeks, it’s amazing! Every once in a while, I will get a little twinge, but nothing like I was getting so I’m very happy about that. I am getting another cold and I’m pretty pissed about that. While I’m really loving being pregnant, the only true down fall is being pregnant during the winter when colds and things are on the peak. Just stinks.
I’m also having huge anxiety about driving. I was born and raised in the same city and now just live about 20 minutes from there, meaning I’m still experiencing the same weather patterns as I did growing up. I was never a fan of driving in the winter because you just cannot predict how the roads are, nor can you control the other drivers and it’s just nerve racking. Within the last two weeks, I’ve run into two different scenarios where I’m just cruising along and then all hell breaks loose on the roads. One person hits their breaks and before I know it there are about 5 to 10 cars swerving ahead of me and it’s my job to keep my car steady and avoid the other drivers. Last week was really scary, but I didn’t hit anyone and everything happened behind me. This week, I was sideways in my lane headed toward a mess of cars that were also losing control of their cars and I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to pull out of it. By some grace of God, it happened though and none of us hit each other, luckily. The woman that got the brunt of is, hit the guard rail/median two, on both ends left her bumper behind and then managed to slide across all lanes of traffic to get off the road. It was unbelievable and for me… I was sliding with my driver’s side headed for the most impact.
Following this mess on Thursday, it rocked my entire day. After I pulled out of the mess of sliding cars and got back into my lane, I was totally freaking out. I was hyperventilating and crying hysterically. It was my first moment that I had an uncontrollable cry that I just couldn’t contain myself. It was bad. I even got to my office and just the thought of what had happened started it up again. I know that these moments will be closer together as time goes on, but seriously, I don’t know what to do. My commute is 38 miles one way. It’s mostly highway and there are alternate ways, but I don’t think they would be any better.
I know that if I leave earlier, I might run into the same sort of mess with different drivers on the road, I know that if I drive slower than the norm, I’m going to be the cause of an accident, I know that if I just plan on being overly cautious and drive to work with plenty of time I might avoid some of this mess, but there’s just not guarantee. I had my heart rate up pretty high and I didn’t feel comfortable driving. On my way home, the roads were even worse and I was a mess. I visit with my dr. soon and I’m going to ask her about this to see what she thinks.
It’s just too much to think about harming myself or my baby during this precious time. Too much to risk.
Weight: My weight is still on the low end of gaining and I’m so very happy about this. Like I’ve said before, I’ve had some spare weight on me for some time now and I believe that my body is just making use of that before I really dig into the gaining department. I’m up 5 lbs so far and it really does make me feel great. I’m consulting with my dr. to make sure that I’m on the right track. I just don’t want to be unaware. I’m eating what sounds good and sometimes it healthy and sometimes it isn’t, but I’m still aware.
Food: Still not interested in tacos and sometimes meat items in general. But don’t get me wrong, I did go to Rusty Bucket the other day and got a fat daddy burger! That was so good!
Doctor’s Appointments: I don’t have one this week. My next one is January 28th.
On shower dates and planning: The new hiccup is location. Before we were planning on having it at my house, but I just have too many people on the guest list. I’ve thought about cutting back and doing separate showers, but I just don’t want to have 3 and 4 showers. I’d like for everyone to be at one and just get it going. I know I shouldn’t be helping to plan my own shower, but I cannot help it. I’ve been calling locations that I think would work to get pricing and so far, we have several options for a shower location. Now we just have to pick one!
This week’s events: It’s pretty low key. We got a lot of snow this week. About 3 to 5 inches around the city between Tuesday and Thursday. I had class and breezed through our class work! It’s such a great feeling when you do good and you know you’re doing well! This weekend is a little low key. We have a gathering with some friends on Saturday for the basketball game and then I’m watching our neighbor friends daughter who is a blast. Sunday I have another baby shower for a friend. It’s fun attending these showers to get ideas for other gatherings!
Sprout is now the size of a cantaloupe! What? That’s crazy! I cannot believe that, I mean, it makes sense, but seriously. A cantaloupe! I suppose he’s only going to get bigger, but that’s nuts.
The Bump says: Baby gulps down several ounces of amniotic fluid every day, both for nutrition and to practice swallowing and digesting. And, these days, those taste buds actually work! Studies show that after birth, babies respond best to tastes they've already had via amniotic fluid. Meaning, think about what you'd like your future child to eat as you prepare your own lunch.
That’s all for now… I’m off to Target to raid their sale racks.