[written 10.26.10 - 8 weeks, 4 days]
I'm not showing, I'm not gaining weight and I'm trying very hard to stay positive. I'm getting a little anxiety about approaching the upcoming days and weeks, but I know we'll be fine. I have an appointment on Friday and I'm very much looking forward to that! I'm hopeful that we'll hear the heart again and know that things are still doing very well.
Oh yea, did I tell you yesterday (or the last time that I wrote) that we heard the heartbeat! Well, even if I did, I'll tell you again! We went in for our ultrasound and when we both heard the heartbeat, we both teared up. I mean, we remember what it felt like last time, but we also weren't sure what this one would bring, so we tried to remain positive. It was a great feeling when we heard it. Unfortunately, my doctor had a schedule mix up and was running ULTRA late for her appointments so I had to walk out of my appointment with her and return next week, which was this week.
Oh and I'm having a singleton baby. Very exciting and not twins. :)
Since the appointment was nuts the days before, I went in a few days after my ultrasound, and she did my annual exam and checked everything out and she said almost immediately that everything looked perfect. She said that my ultrasound was great and my progression was great too. She was so positive and so uplifting that I left there feeling like I was high. For some reason, I was thinking (and hoping) that I would get to hear the heartbeat while I was there, but unfortunately I learned that I won't be hearing that until 13 weeks. I just have about 5 weeks to get to that point and while that's not too far away, it seemed like a while when I heard it. I have to remember that at this point, time might have felt like it was dragging because I'm only talking about it with my husband and my doctor. Once we start sharing it with more people and talking about it more regularly... HOPEFULLY time will start to pass a bit quicker. We'll see. Anyway, it's all very exciting!
She also said that since everything is on track, that we're going to shoot for June 4, 2011 as the due date! I'm sort of glad because that's when all the calculators said it would be and now my doctor is on board too!
How am I feeling? + Food:
This week, I've felt a change. Some foods do not sound good. Other times, I'm just starving but can't find a thing to quinch it. I'm not quiet as tired, just thirsty a lot of the times. I'm drinking water and visiting the bathroom much more often. I get sort of sick feeling when I'm not eating and when I've passed the point of needing something to eat, I get even more sick feeling. It's not a lot of fun. This week for lunch, it was really hard to manage. I found myself just eating a piece of toast with butter because that was the only thing that sounded good and didn't gross me out when it was cooking. I've also eatten an entire sleeve of saltines, just to keep something in my tummy that won't upset it. I'm trying to dealing by keeping food close by, but there are many times in my day where I just forget and then by the time I remember, it's too late. It's a phase, right? It will pass, just have to work through it. At first when this was happening at home, I wasn't getting it and now I'm understanding it more and more. My husband is starting to notice that things just aren't going to sound good or taste good. He's being a good sport but I could see where if this progresses, it will become a problem.
[written 11.2.10 - 9 weeks, 5 days]
I have to admit (and on here will be the first time I actually say it "out loud") that leading up to my appointment with my doctor I had some serious anxiety. At the ultrasound, I was good. I didn't have a bit of anxiety, I just knew that everything was okay. When I was going in for my follow up appointment that I had to leave and come back later in the week for... that was really nerve racking. I was approaching the point in my last pregnancy where I had lost the baby so to think about that (in the very back of my mind) and then head to the appointment, I was just a mess. I wasn't trying to lead on to this feeling to anyone. I wanted to fit it alone. I wanted to get rid of the feeling without involving anyone, because if I shared it with anyone, they would think I was losing it probably. But now being a little further along and reflecting back, I'm okay. I'm doing much better and I'm not stuck on what did happen, but instead of what IS happening.
[written 10.26.10 - 8 weeks, 4 days]
Update from "The Bump" & "Baby Center":
The Bump: Your baby is growing like mad, putting on about a millimeter every day and continuing to straighten out in the trunk. Though you can't feel it yet, baby is moving those little arms, legs and (now only slightly) webbed fingers and toes like crazy.
[ tip ] Conquer the queasies with ginger. Make your own tea by grating fresh ginger into hot water, or snack on ginger candies and ginger ale. (Make sure they contain the real stuff, not artificial flavoring.)
Baby Center: How your baby's growing: New this week: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways. You may be daydreaming about your baby as one sex or the other, but the external genitals still haven't developed enough to reveal whether you're having a boy or a girl. Either way, your baby — about the size of a kidney bean — is constantly moving and shifting, though you still can't feel it.
Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.
How your life's changing:You may notice that your bra is getting more snug. Soon you'll likely need a larger size with better support. Rising levels of hormones cause breast growth and other tissue changes, all in preparation for lactation. Your breasts may continue to grow throughout pregnancy. Don't be surprised if you go up a cup size or two, especially if it's your first baby. Keep this in mind, and allow for room to grow when investing in a new bra.
Feeling fatigued? Hormonal changes — in particular, a dramatic rise in progesterone — may be contributing to your sluggishness. Nausea and vomiting can certainly cost you energy, too. And you may be having trouble getting a good night's sleep at this point, especially if you're uncomfortable or find you need to get up to pee.