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A reoccurring thought...

Today, I would be almost to the end of my first pregnancy with Spud.  I'd be wrapping up my appointments weekly and heading into the 36th week in just 3 days from now.

It's sort of crazy to think about this because while I know what happened, happened for a reason and the last thing that we wanted would be to keep that pregnancy and end up with bigger problems down the road.  And, it was just another hiccup that we were faced with that we have spent many hours overcoming.  We know that because of our miscarriage we became closer and we were challenged to work through another part of our relationship that we could've never planned for.  And we did it.  We made it through those horrible months and we continue to feel better with ever passing day.  We will never forget Spud.

It's interesting to think about how different our life would be right now.  We had talked about when we would've had showers/diaper parties and those dates had already passed.  We actually had a party at our house the day that we have talked about a friend hosting a shower at their house, had things worked out.

It actually makes me nervous thinking about being 36 weeks pregnant and having to get around in the snow and ice that we've had over the last few days.  I know that being almost 16 weeks, I fear falling or having an issue on my drive home.  Being 36 weeks... I would probably just want to stay home and stay safe.

With mixed emotions, I think about these days and this time that I would've had with Spud.  I think about all of the things that we had planned or are planning and I think about what we would be doing differently if I were still with Spud.

We are happy with how things evolved and we know that we are very lucky to have had them proceed as they did.  It wasn't easy, per say, but we're here.  Trucking along with little Sprout.  Little healthy Sprout. 

And there isn't a day that we don't think about Spud.


Best part of this post:

"We are happy with how things evolved and we know that we are very lucky to have had them proceed as they did. It wasn't easy, per say, but we're here. Trucking along with little Sprout. Little healthy Sprout."


Am so happy for you.

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