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just normal.

This roller coaster that we're on is really rocking us. 

We want everything to be normal and we want to stop worrying. 

As a friend suggested, we took a pregnancy test to see if it would be pregnant, when we knew it would be negative and it was negative.  It was hard to see, but it's reality.  We aren't going to see a positive pregnancy test every time that we want to see it.  But it will happen again.

Everything that we had fought for over the last 4 years seems like it's starting all over again now.  We have new thoughts, new worries, new stresses, new calmness, new pain, new supplements, new everything.  We don't know what to expect and we play a really tiring waiting game.

We beg for aunt flow to show up so that it proves my body is operating as it should.  Then we wait.

It's still the same game, but with new steps and new fears.

We're in a really good spot lately and feel really calm, but there are days that just rock us too.

We're in it to win it and we will.  Just takes time, as always.


lisa said…
still praying for you thru this journey...

I am happy to hear for the most part you are in a really good place and it is ONLY natural that some days will be harder then others.

Your attitude is amazing. HUG

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