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And just when I was getting ready to post this post....

It's almost 5 weeks post d&c and I still haven't seen af yet.


She's starting to piss me off.


I want it to just be here so I know what's going on.


But I can't just make that happen.


I know that I still have about 4 more weeks until I have to tell my dr. that it didn't arrive.


I'm hoping I don't get to that point either.


I just want her here.


Wait....


Can you believe that those words are even coming out of my mouth?


That I actually WANT af to arrive?  I mean, that's crazy talk.


But I do.


And I hope it's sooner than later dadgummit!


She ARRIVES!!!

On July 19th she gave me a little tease and I thought, "OH NO, implantation bleeding!"  But I was wrong because on July 20th, she came full blown with cramps and everything!  I was thinking how I wonder how she would arrive this time around, but she's just as fierce as ever!

Although it sucks and it was nice to be without her for almost 3 months, I'm glad she's back so we can get back in this game!

Wish us luck...


Comments

Yay! You're back in the game. GO TEAM. YOU CAN DO THIS, Happy Hopeful's body! GO! GO! GO!
YAY! Good luck and I am keeping everything crossed for you!!
Allison said…
You're much more excited about AF showing on July 19th after a hiatus than I was! But I'm happy for you--sending you good thoughts, prayers, and best wishes!!!
Alyson said…
yah!! Good Luck!!
the grumbles said…
ha, i like that- GAME ON, BODY!
JJ said…
Thinking GOOD things for you!!

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