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Pregnancy #1=FAIL

This is going to brief.

I found out this week that our baby didn't have a heartbeat.

It was confirmed yesterday by my dr.

I had a D&C yesterday around 4:30pm.  I arrived at 2:45pm and wasn't discharged until 10:30pm.

I'm home resting and in little pain/discomfort.

I'll write more details when I'm able, but I wanted to tell you this much so you weren't all left in the dark.

Thanks for your continued support.

We know that we didn't cause this to happen and there was nothing we could've done to prevent this.

We do know that we are excited to have been this far, we're just sad it has ended this way.  We hope to try again very soon and know that this time around we'll probably have a better chance of it working and not having to wait so long.  Or so we hope.

More to come, later...

Comments

Erin said…
I'm so sorry!
Jeannie said…
My heart aches for you and your hubs. I'm so so sorry.

Please know you are in my thoughts today and in the coming days.
Allison said…
As always, you're in my thoughts and prayers.
One Pork Chop said…
I don't think I've ever been more saddened to read something like this than I am at this moment.

Words cannot express how sorry I am.
SassyTimes said…
I'm so sorry Jill.
Dre said…
Jill, I am so so sorry. Nothing I have to say will make this any better, but just know that I am thinking of you guys.
Allison (Ali) said…
I'm sorry to hear that, hugs
Jill, I just felt a pang in my heart for you. I cannot imagine what you and your husband are going through. I am so sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry.
Sarah Dee said…
you are in my prayers every night.

i wanted to let you know that the ad at the bottom of your post for me was 'tough, strong, resilient'. it was something for windows. but, perfect description of you.
I am so sorry for your loss. This breaks my heart.
I found your blog through One Porkchop & have been silently following your story.

I am so sorry for your loss. :(
I don't know what I can say except that I am so very sorry for your loss and that I am thinking about you and your husband. *hugs*
Sarah said…
My heart breaks for you. I am so incredibly sorry you're going through this.

Your outlook is just amazing though, and you're right. At least you've gotten this far - it makes you feel like it's not impossible anymore. You were such a huge step closer than you've ever been before and that is so, so promising.
Oh, I am so sorry. My heart is broken for you. Take care of yourself and get lots of r&r. For what it's worth, it helped a lot after our D&C to have had the genetic testing done. The information we received was really helpful and eased my mind in many ways.

I'll tell my sweet angel, Mya, to give your angel a nice warm welcome to heaven. Just so sorry for you.
Mrs. Dirnberger said…
My stomach dropped when I read this title! I hate this for. I know how hard miscarriages, dnc can be.
I will be praying for you to heal and your hearts to heal
HBW said…
I'm so sorry...my heart is with you.
Wendy said…
My heart dropped when I saw your post heading. So so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.
Meg said…
I've been there, and I'm sorry it happened to you.
The Nanny said…
Oh, I'm so sorry :(
So sorry to hear this Jill but you've got a great attitude/outlook. Prayers and positive thoughts being sent your way.
Trophy Life said…
i am so sorry for you and your husband and i hope and pray that a speedy recovery awaits you and that you remain hopeful.
t.w.i.t. said…
Love you, Jill.
Just me said…
Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry. I've been there and it sucks. :(

Hang in there. Thinking of you. xoxo
Maria said…
I am so sorry to hear this news. Take care of yourself.
Moore Family said…
So sorry for your loss :-(
Andrea said…
My face literally fell when I read this post title. I'm so so sorry you have to endure this. I'm hopefully you won't have to wait long for pregnancy #2. Hang in there.
lena said…
My heart aches for you. I am so sorry.
Anonymous said…
So sorry to hear that, jill.
Lydia said…
Thinking of you two, stay strong. I'm so sorry.
Danica said…
My heart cries for you. Sending you hugs and prayers.
the grumbles said…
Jill- I'm thinking about you both. I'm so very sorry. Know that we all support you, even if it's just in this small way. You are loved.
I'm Molly said…
I am heartbroken for both of you. so very sorry for your loss.

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