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BIG tears

It's been almost 3 years and I just can't shaking my head.

Why did this happen?

Why did he have to leave?

Why did we leave the window open?

Why did he have to get hurt?

Why didn't my neighbors think too look?

Why didn't they notice the screen on our front porch?

Why did this happen?

I'm so lucky to have found him breathing, as to (selfishly) get one last goodbye in, but good God that was just a terrible feeling and sight.  Lucky might not be the best word, but thankful for sure.

I can't forget him.

I cannot ever ever ever forget him.

I can't shake the memory of finding him.

Or all the happy memories/pictures that we have of him.

It hurts A LOT and it breaks my heart that it had to happen like this.

We loved him, so much.

So, as I sit here, with BIG tear welling up in my eyes/rolling down my face, I just wanted you to remember him too.

We love and miss you SO MUCH, Oscar.

Comments

Danica said…
Sending hugs! I'm so sorry. I remember your story. :-(
mrs.leah.maria said…
Oh hunny, I'm so sorry. You were such a big source of comfort to me with Bridgit. I will always remember that. I wish you hadn't of had this experience though. ::(
I am so sorry for your loss. It doesn't matter how much time elapses... these little creatures leave a brand on our hearts.

Oscar seems like he was a real sweetie. Hug.
Just me said…
So sorry. :( :( :( *I* totally get it. Almost as hard as losing them is trying to justify our feelings to those who DON'T get it. :(

My girl died from cancer six months ago, but it was horrible in it's own way. I miss her every single day. At night I go to bed and wish there was some way she could be back with me. I look at pictures and seeing her smooshy face makes me smile and breaks my heart at the same time. I am in a sort of denial that I will never have her with me again.

Hugs and healing to you!!!
Allison said…
Sending you hugs, prayers, and good thoughts. ((HUGS))
EmilyBill said…
Hi! I found your blog through another blog and I noticed that you too are on the baby journey. My husband and I have been at it for about a year now, but we are just starting to really get serious about it. Wishing luck to you and your family!
So, so sorry this had to happen. I agree -- it doesn't matter how much time goes by, some things don't seem to fade. Hugs to you.
Alyson said…
That is so sad! Losing a pet is so hard!

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