Time is passing and permanent/next step decisions AREN'T being made about where our marriage is going.
Not because of anything other than HOPE....
Hope that these changes are real. I can't deal with an act anymore. I'm done with those fake attempts. It just won't work for me. I can't.
Hope that he really wants to change. Because he's the only one that can make that decision for himself and not anyone else.
Hope that a new normal is really a possible option. And not just a glimmer of something that will eventually be shattered and destroyed.
Hope that we could work through all of this and actually land on our feet. But he has to want to do those things and my guidance won't help him. He's got to want to do them on his own. I can't help or ask or guide. He has to do it. Alone and with the help of God.
Hope that the narcissistic behaviors are being dealt with in positive ways and won't resurface. With the help of prayer, guidance from h…
There is a blog that I follow of a photographer that I saw at the Delaware County Fair. Her studio is near my home town and her pictures are very vibrant. I enjoy looking at different aspects of photography and I like seeing how didn’t people capture pictures and scenes… I guess you could say I’m envious.
While following her blog, I saw a post that stated Calling All Furry Friends and immediately responded. I have always wanted to have Toby get professional pictures done but I just fear that I wouldn’t pick the right person to capture his personality.
Anyway, as you can read in the link above, there were a handful of photographers at Megan Morgan’s studio and they were all going to be there just to take furry friends pictures.
Of the people that were there two have uploaded their pictures and Toby is in them!
I know that I haven't really updated this in a long while. I apologize. In the moments it was hard enough to survive, let alone write about it or find time to write about it.
With that said, I've told people over and over again that I'm going to write again, just not sure where to start.
So, today, I'm starting here.
My mom is terminal.
Words that I cannot believe have to leave my mouth or my fingers.
She's been battling Ovarian Cancer for well over 10 years and this last year or 8 months+ have been just the worst. Her body is being consumed by cancer and with every day that passes we are just another closer to losing her.
She's fought this whole time and continues to beat the odds that the doctors have placed before her. She's set goals and surpassed them and when the doctors say something, it's like she mentally tells herself that it's just NOT going to happen and she flies by those measurable items.
She's been a rock star and I have known …