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I've talked about this before and I will probably talk about this for the rest of my life... Heck, I think I just wrote this same post a couple of weeks ago, but I still feel this way, so I'm venting.

Anyway, I'm still pissed about my weight.  I'm still struggling.  My clothes don't fit right, I feel like fats days happen every day much more than skinny days and I'm just feeling down.

I wanted to blame it on the winter blahs and the fact that fertility treatments just send your body on so many ups and downs.  I tried to blame it on being a nervous/stress eater.  I wanted to blame it on the meals that we were making at home, the fact that we're not doing weight watchers at work any longer and everything else inbetween.

I've started the 30 day shred.  I've been doing it every other day for the last couple of weeks.  I need to amp that up a little and get to a point where I could do it daily.  It's only 20 minutes so it should be no problem but there's always an excuse.

The sun is out today and it's making me antsy to get out there and start running again.  It's much easier to say than to actually do, but at least I'm thinking about it.  Part of me thinks that I should just bring clothes to change into while at work so I'm all set when I get home to go run.  That way there is not excuse.  But I would have to actually do it.

I'm not looking for a pitty party here, I'm just venting some of my frustrations.  It's a silly thing and if I didn't like food so much, it would probably be easier.

OH well, I'm hoping for a good spring and some warmer weather sooner than later!  It's only going to encourage me to do more!  :)

I hope it's sunny where you are today....


Danica said…
I'm in the same shoes you are regarding my feelings about weight. I hate feeling this way.

Good luck with your journey!
Girl, you're not alone! I've lost a bunch of weight since January but I still feel SUPER fat and can't fit into a size smaller. GRRR!!! I'm contemplating running a half-marathon so I figure that'll get me motivated and even if I don't lose weight, I'll feel awesome about doing it!
Anonymous said…
Jill- Stop all of your crazy plans and read Idiot's Guide to Detox. Don't do the cleanse (it is crazy) but look at the chapters on cutting out processed foods and looking at your blood type in terms of diet. After you read it- go home and take everything with high fructose corn syrup, wheat, sweetner, etc. and put it in a do not eat, do not buy again column. Then go shopping a buy what they suggest. STOP eating dairy today. You will lose 10 lbs. by May 1st. Tell yourself that I am going to try this for 6 weeks. Pretty soon you will be hooked and still doing the diet (aka lifestyle) 2 years later. Do 30 minutes of exercise everyday and you will look like you did in high school! Love, Nikki

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