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well that's just fucked up....

Look at this shit...

I think Lurking in La Vida Loca said it best... Bullshit.

my 24...

Since we have officially finished with our 24th cycle while trying to conceive, it’s been an interesting journey but we will be happy once the journey is complete. To showcase what we’ve learned throughout this time, I’m making a list of 24 things that I’ve learned during these 24 months. These are things that I have personally learned or experienced. These things might be minuscule to you or maybe something that you have known but to me, these are just some things that I would like to share with you…

Side Note 1: My count of 24 months is from the moment that we thought we were expecting in September/October of 2006. We didn’t officially start “truly trying” until December of 2006. We had been off birth control since June of 2004 so it was pretty much fair game from that point until today. OMG, I’ve been off birth control since June of 2004, that (sort of) makes me want to cry. 4 + years without birth control and still nothing. Wow. That’s pathetic.

Side Note 2: I just wrapped up my c…

my new blog addition...

I have decided to add a new email address to my blog. It's purely for the purpose of my blog friends contacting me there when they have a question, want to check up on me, or have a hug that they'd like to share through email instead of by comment. It is listed in my profile and you are welcome to contact me there with anything you'd like to ask.

I look forward to hearing from you!

Music for Monday...

"Come on Get Higher" - Matt Nathanson

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and i breathe in

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
Make you believe
Make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I m…

don't cut me off... dammit.

Warning: If you are male and reading this thread, I must warn you. I will be talking about my period. My monthly cycle. Aunt Flow. I won't be talking about the blood, tampons, pads or midol... but I will be talking about the emotional side. Sory. But, if you are still reading this and feel that you would like to read on then, read on!

In true fashion, aunt flow showed yesterday as expected. No, I wasn't really expecting her but why would she let me down now? She's been so faithful to me over the years that why would this cycle be different, right?!

On a normal cycle, I’m usually a complete bitch the week prior and during my cycle. I don’t have control of those emotions or reactions until they are here and my dh tells me to back down. Usually I can sense that something is going on but aside from that I really don’t feel like my attitude is changing until it’s brought to my attention.

This week, however was a little different. I could tell that she was approaching because I…

The ticket search is over... thank God!!!!

This coming Saturday is the Ohio State vs. Penn State game and it is also my dh’s 31st birthday!!! In honor of his birthday I (of course) bought him a few gifts and we have a number of plans to celebrate. Growing up in my family, we always made a big deal of everyone’s birthday. We’d always go out to dinner as a family to celebrate and even now, we still do this. To Sean (my dh) this was kind of foreign. This was because in his family they just didn’t celebrate birthdays and in turn I think that Sean just doesn’t care to celebrate them. On the other hand, I like to celebrate a birthday week if not a birthday month for my birthday! I don’t usually have a countdown until my birthday but I’m always looking forward to it.

The biggest challenge for this weekend was getting tickets to the Ohio State game. It’s turned into a fairly big game for OSU and now that they have done well the last couple of weeks it’s really been pumped up by ESPN and the local sports reporters. This game has actua…

Weight Watchers check in....

I have been doing the Weight Watchers at Work program now for 7 weeks, but with the wind storm and the first week "not counting" (according to our leader) we are on week 5. So after 6 total weigh ins but 5 that actually track loss or gain, I'm doing great!

Here's the process so far:

Starting weight: 176.4 (on 9.8.08)

Week 1: 177.0 (on 9.22.08) a gain of 0.6 pounds

Week 2: 171.2 (on 9.29.08) a loss of 5.8 pounds :)

Week 3: 170.4 (on 10.6.08) a loss of 1.2 pounds :)

Week 4: 171.6 (on 10.13.08) a gain of 0.8 pounds

Week 5: 168.4 (on 10.20.08) a loss of 3.2 pounds :)

So my current total loss is 8 pounds. That's great! I'm very happy with that and I hope to continue. We are doing this for 10 weeks and I'm hoping that everyone is able to sign up again so that we can continue our meetings at work.

Thanks again for all of your support!!!

fall, fall, and more fall....

My mantel. It's go a lot going on this year. Some new additions that I need to still work on. The above seen "haunted house" picture on the right, is a picture that I made in elementary school that I need to get a shadow box frame for and hopefully that will help with the presentation of it. All in all, I'm happy with the way it turned out this year.

A closer view of my mantel. I love the little details and the way the light was hitting it this morning when I snapped these pictures!

My favorite new buy of the season, a $2.00 wreath with little candy corn looking pieces and corn stalk like filler. Very cute and it's placed around a Yankee Candle a citrus scent that I'm totally blanking on. I will soon be replacing it for one of White Barn Candles Sweet Pumpkin candles. Love that scent!!

One of two glass (candy jar) pumpkins that I refuse to fill with candy this year, so I decorated it with a wreath! Do you like it?

My 1/2 bath in with all of it's fall dec…

jen, mama, or crispin's mama... however....

To my dear friend, Jen, Happy 30th Birthday!!!! Because we weren't able to celebrate yesterday, I thought that I would post this in hopes that you could see that I'm wishing you a very happy birthday (over the blogosphere)!!! I also encourage all of my blog friends to go over to Jen's blog, and wish her a very happy birthday as well!

You are crossing quite a milestone, today and for that, it should be recognized!!!!

To my long time friend, I hope that you do something for yourself today!!! Go to the mall, take a nap, get take out, get a new webkinz... whatever it might be... Just be sure to enjoy YOUR day!!!

Love you, Jill (& Sean)

p.s. Love this picture. I thought that it was a little more tasteful than some of the other one's I have from the touring band days... :)

my etsy love affair...

I have expressed my love and obsession with etsy before. However, my love for the artists, crafters and quilters on this site continues to grow daily! To show you just a few of my new favorite things found on etsy, I'm going to posting them here for your viewing pleasure (and giving the seller credit by posting their site/shop information too):

1. Garden Pouch with Amy Butler's Geisha in Olive fabric and Green Moon dot fabric: girl by Aileen

2. Toliet Seat "Sweet" Reminder: decal momograms

3. Amy Butler's Red Lotus Baby Quilt: Luna by Karina Potestio

4. Wicked Candle Shoppe with Witch: Palmer Falls

5. Casserole Cover in bright cheery fabric (can be customized):
Pretty in Purple

6. Wallet in Amy Butler fabric: The Pickled Pepper

7. Tissue box cover in (my favorite) Amy Butler's Red Lotus: Head to Toe 2007

8. Alphabet Soup wall decal:

9. Round Return (custom made) Address Labels: Bohtique Shop

10. Happy Birthday Fabric Banner made with Amy Butler fabrics: Meringue Desig…

Oct 15th... remember...

Please remember those who have experienced pregnancy & infant loss today.


Blogging for me has been a really nice addition to my day to day life. It gives me an outlet to vent my frustrations and feelings about our fertility issues and through other blogs, find that I’m not alone. However, over the past week I have read some of my blogs on my google reader and have felt as though, I shouldn’t base my entire blog around what we aren’t able to accomplish, but rather what we are. My focus, according to the blog title and html is that we are anxiously awaiting a pregnancy, period. Although that is a goal, it’s not the only thing that we are trying to achieve, together, in our relationship.

Many people throughout the last 24 months have naively told me to just take a step away from the situation and let it happen. Stop worrying about it and it should just work. That maybe I’m spending too much time thinking about it and I should stop. That I want this too bad that if I would just give it a break… If you aren’t trying and you think that this is (just that) easy, y…

hope this clears up some things....

Q: Why ORM and why Dr. Schmidt?

A: First, in Ohio, it’s the largest provider of these services. Their treatments, outcomes and care are unlike any other in the state. Therefore, this is the place to be. This is what they do and they will give me the end result that we are striving for.

A2: Dr. Schmidt has been THE doctor for several friends, I was referred by my OB to him and he has a great success rate.

Q: Have I heard of pre-seed?

A: Yes, I have. I just didn’t know enough about it to try it. However knowing what I know now, I’m going to stick with the Robitussin for (at least) two cycles and from there I’ll look more into the pre-seed product.

Q: Did I miss my last cycle?

A: No. It came. She was here, I just forgot to update my journey on the right as well as my post about her. That bitch just doesn’t know when to quit.

Q: What does the Robitussin do for your cervix mucus exactly?

A: As my friend put it, it’s like your cervix mucus has a cough and we need to medicate it so that it…

12 weeks...

Can you believe that Christmas is already approaching and it only 12 weeks away?

Are you ready?

What are you going to make this year more successful?

Join simple mom and tackle this holiday season better than any other year in your past...

Ready, GO!

a classic...

At our office we have XM radio playing all day along with various other stations that we find on the internet. It plays through the entire office and we listen to just about every type of music. Just a few minutes ago a class came on and I thought that I would remind you all of the great band ABBA....

Enjoy the Waterloo by Abba...

This is a good one to whistle to...

new addition...


Look at that?!?!

It's my new signature from my live signature. Isn't she pretty? You can get one too... go there and get one for yourself!!!