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don't cut me off... dammit.

Warning: If you are male and reading this thread, I must warn you. I will be talking about my period. My monthly cycle. Aunt Flow. I won't be talking about the blood, tampons, pads or midol... but I will be talking about the emotional side. Sory. But, if you are still reading this and feel that you would like to read on then, read on!




In true fashion, aunt flow showed yesterday as expected. No, I wasn't really expecting her but why would she let me down now? She's been so faithful to me over the years that why would this cycle be different, right?!

On a normal cycle, I’m usually a complete bitch the week prior and during my cycle. I don’t have control of those emotions or reactions until they are here and my dh tells me to back down. Usually I can sense that something is going on but aside from that I really don’t feel like my attitude is changing until it’s brought to my attention.

This week, however was a little different. I could tell that she was approaching because I was getting my normal cramping and also severe back pain on and off until she finally showed face yesterday. But my emotions this time around seem different. I haven’t really been a complete bitch this week. I’ve actually be an emotional wreck. I’ve found myself crying on a number of occasions over things that I would NEVER typically cry over.

To give you an example of something I normally cry over… Grey’s Anatomy. There is always a scene in that show that makes me cry… or at least tear up. Last night it was when the son came into the father’s room after Karev yelled at him for not caring. Or when McDreamy gave Meredith the liver in the jar and said thank you to her for her help with the clinical trial!

However, today I found myself crying at this asshole that cut me off on a merge where I was in the right of way and he didn’t even blink an eye! I started to tear up because of that this morning. This, my blog friends, is an example of something that would NEVER make me cry. I was pissed but it was so strange how it just turned into tears all of a sudden.

I can’t wait for moments when I cry for no reason while I’m a hormonal wreck during a future pregnancy. But for right now, I don’t know I can handle these random crying episodes. It’s very strange and so not like me.

Ugh…. Some days I just hate being a woman.




Comments

The Jen said…
Love you LOTS. You're stronger than most people I know... and yet, we all falter, don't we? Let the feelings flow. Fighting them will only make it worse... you're amazing. HUGE hugs to you.

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