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the secret

For some time now, I've been searching for the secret, the ticket, the one thing that is really going to make this pregnancy stick or even work, for that matter! I figured that after reading book after book, magazine after magazine, website after website and blog after blog, that something would just hit me and it would finally work! Well, it hasn't worked. There's nothing that we aren't doing that is working for us.

This month is a new month because I already feel so tranquil with not focusing such negative energy, rather positive energy. I thought it was just something that I came up with on my own. (aside from the 100's of people that have told me, "just relax, it will happen") However, today I received an email from a friend who recently found out she was pregnant. She said that her "ticket" (after months of trying) was a book called "The Secret". It didn't necessarily focus on the ins and outs of becoming pregnant but the ins…


I know that it's only been a week since I announced that I was "taking a (mental)break", but I'm telling you that it just feels great! I'm aware of the days, but I'm not testing and I'm not stressing out! I'm just going to take it easy and relax a little. I think dh can already tell that it will be more enjoyable this time around, instead of work.

I'm hoping ... actually I'm not hoping for anything this month. I just don't want to think about anything for these next couple of weeks. I want them to come and go without much thought... So, (just for fun) I've included a picture of what I'll be doing for the next 20(ish) days....

I'll be here, thinking and looking like this...

This is a good word of choice too:

tran·quil (trngkwl, trn-)
1. Free from commotion or disturbance. See Synonyms at calm.
2. Free from anxiety, tension, or restlessness; composed.
3. Steady; even: a tranquil flame.

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food from friends for friday: Buffalo Chicken Dip

buffalo chicken dip (so f-ing good)

2 packages of cream cheese
one bottle of ranch and/ or blue cheese (use half and half if you want)
chopped cooked chicken
bottle of buffalo wing sauce
shredded cheddar cheese

Mix cream cheese, at room temp, with salad dressing and chicken. add buffalo wing sauce until it's hot enough to your liking. pour into glass baking dish and sprinkle with shredded cheese. bake in a 425 oven until cheese is golden and slightly bubbly.


crockpot style buffalo chicken dip

5 chicken breast. boil and shred
2 cream cheese
12 oz Monterey/Colby cheese
12 oz red hot
4 stalks of celery
1/2 bottle ranch dressing
Cayenne pepper to taste.

mix all ingredients in a crock pot, heat up to desired temperature and serve with tostitos.

From Katina.

things to do on Thursday...

1. Get a new watch battery for Sean. (I may or may not have kept it for 4+ months and still haven't gone to get one. I am, however, doing this TODAY!)

2. Attend company happy hour! I don't think that we could ask for a better day for a beer on the patio!

3. Mark & plant new boxwoods in backyard around the deck. (pictures to come) **finished 4/27/08**

4. Rake out dead grass in our front yard to avoid large dead spots. ** 1/2 completed 050408 **

5. Make tuna salad for dinner - YUM! ** finished 4/29/08**

6. WATCH GREY'S ANATOMY! Seriously, it's just been way too long since this show has been aired and I guess I can thank the Writer's Strike for that... I can't wait!!!! Now I'm just waiting for the Private Practice to come back and then I'll be set!

naked lunch...

Now that I've got your attention... ha! Just kidding.

MAC's Naked Lunch eyeshadow is my new favorite product. I was an avid user of Shroom but was recently introduced to NL and I love it!

While I'm at it I might as well endorse another must have for your makeup bag! MAC's Studio Fix... It goes on like powder but is more substantial and goes on like a foundation. I highly recommend this product. It is literally something that I use every. single. day.

Now, run like the wind to your nearest MAC store and purchase these things! You will love them, I promise!

Photos provided by MAC

Tips for a Better Life - 2008

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.

4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to __________ today.'

5. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

6. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007.

7. Make time to practice meditation and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

11. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flo…

what finger are you?

You Are a Ring Finger

You are romantic, expressive, and hopeful. You see the best in everything.

You are very artistic, and you see the world as your canvas. You are also drawn to the written word.

Inventive and unique, you are often away in your own inner world.

You get along well with: The Pinky

Stay away from: The Index Finger

What Finger Are You?

i need a break...

For the last 18 or so months I have been diligently counting the days, stressing myself out, taking opk, and pregnancy tests anywhere from 2 to 5 days early just to see if I'm actually pregnant. During all of this I have become completely obsessed with becoming pregnant. It's really effecting me and hitting me hard that it's just not working. I feel like this last cycle was really hard for me and mentally, I just need a break.

I started my cycle on Thursday last week and technically I was supposed to start my 3rd round of clomid on Saturday. I didn't call the doctor however I'm going to today. I'm just going to tell them that I need a break. I need to have a cycle that I just don't think about it. Where dh and I can really reflect on the last couple of months and do everything except what we have done for the last 18 cycles.

Not only has it been hard for me but my dh doesn't enjoy my emotional state. We also don't enjoy the state in which our relat…

food from friends friday: Dump Cake

(fondly called) Dump Cake

Regular sized can of Cherry pie filling (we use light)
Same sized can of Crushed pineapple in juice
Yellow Cake Mix (we use Pillsbury, Reduced Sugar)
2 sticks of butter (we use one, and have in the past used light butter)
Walnuts, crushed

Spread the pie filling and pineapple (drained) in the bottom of a 9x13 (is that right... it really doesn't matter, it will just make your dish thicker or thinner depending on the pan used). Dump cake mix on top. Cut up butter stick and scatter over entire cake surface. Sprinkle Cinnamon. Sprinkle Walnuts. Bake at 350 for at least 45 min. It's done when the cake mix is getting crunchy (butter melts over it). Be sure not to burn the cherry mix on the bottom so watch for that also.

Enjoy hot or cold (my favorite is cold - after it bakes)!

From Cassie and Jenny.

things to do on thursday...

tested this mornin'....

I had a break down yesterday that resulted in my dh giving me the ept back.

I tested this am with my fmu and I got a..... bfn.

Yep. Really shocking.

Still no af so.... we're just waiting...

**** Update as of 4/17/08 at about 7:30pm ****

Af is here, loud and clear!

(possible TMI) It's so bad that I vomited two times already and I feel like I could do it again. Not to mention, my face looks like it was pegged with a pellet gun 100 times. Oh how I wish I didn't have my cycle.

wfmw - removing white out from clothes...

That's trick! I had no idea.

Step 1.

Use WD 40 liberally on both sides of the stain. Allow the WD-40 to penetrate through the stain. The stain will begin to loosen. Test by touching the stain. Small flecks of the white out should begin to come loose. Rinse thoroughly.

Step 2.

Lay the clothing on a clean white towel. Sponge nail polish remover onto both sides of the stain. Rinse thoroughly. Repeat the application of nail polish remover and continue to rinse until the stain is removed. Rinse the stained area thoroughly.

Step 3.

Finally, to remove any hidden traces of the stain, apply a stain stick, spray, or gel to the stained area and wash normally.

Note-to-Self: Post in laundry room just in case teacher dh has a fight with white out again and looses.

kicking myself...

So I am on day 28 of my cycle and 14 dpo. Almost a week ago, I called my dh and told him where I had a pregnancy test. I told him to pull it out and hide it somewhere and don't give it to me until... well today. He didn't give it to me and he won't give it to me until Saturday! Seriously, you have got to be kidding me! I can't wait until Saturday! I just want to test now. It's better to know that to just have AF show up! I hate those days.

Anyway, that's the scoop. I hate that I've set myself for this but I have to live with my mistake.

Until Saturday...


So I joined the Y about 3 weeks ago and I'm just attending their land aerobics classes. I've been doing zumba, yoga, and kickboxing but this weekend I tried cycling. Holy crap was it a great work out. Not only did I sweat the entire time, but 45 minutes of cycling = trouble walking the next day! My legs were sore, my arms, stomach and my shoulders! It was amazing how everything was so sore from just cycling!

I am looking forward to my next class but I'm going to have to rest for one more day before I get back into it!

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wedding and gator...

My dh was in a wedding this weekend for his bff or hetero-sexual-life-mate; what a wedding and what a reception! Their family and friends love doing the gator during the song "SHOUT" and just to capture a few...

It was a good time... oh and yes, that is the bride, groom, groom's father, sister, uncle, cousin, matron of honor and best man!!

for the love...

It's 8:44am and I can't stop thinking about what my progesterone test was (I haven't heard yet), and I can't help to think that I'm about 5 days from testing!!! This cycle is starting to stir up some of my crazy emotions again....ugh!

I'm 9 dpo. I don't feel weird (i.e. peeing a lot, morning "sickness", or sore bbs). Last month during this time I had extreme pain in my bbs and the nurse did indicate that it could be a sign of pregnancy, but obviously that's not the case.

Anyway, stay posted for the p4 test results! Hopefully they are high like last week!

**** UPDATE AS OF 2:15PM ****

My progesterone was at 31.1!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP, it just keeps growing! We're hoping that this is the cycle that somethings finally sticks!!! We'll know for sure in about 5 ish days! =)

doing my happy dance


After spending so many hours, days, weeks, months, miles and money on a dress I don't know that I could do this but it's really satisfying for some people. Some day I'd like to do it but now with my wedding dress. I just like the look of the pictures and the surroundings...

So what do you think? Will you ever Trash the Dress?

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what was the thing that we learning if girl scouts? make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold. do you remember that? growing older and thinking about my support system i have realized that this is very true. some of my dearest friends are like gold to me. they have been there for me through thick and thin, the don't judge me and my decisions, they always give positive and negative criticism and they will always be there for me when i absolutely need them.

in the past year i have had some golden friends move away to other states or other major cities and without really knowing it at first, it has taken a toll on me. i feel like those are the girls that i know the most about. i could go with any of them to a coffee shop, sit, drink, and not have to say anything at all because just being is so satisfying. i haven't lost them as friends but without them close to me sometimes it's hard because i cannot express my feelings in person and for some situat…

current status...

I'm enjoying this totally rockin' unseasonable weather, in my 2ww and trying not to think about how many "dpo" i am... It's kinda depressing so to control my frustrations I'm off to Chipotle!

*update as of 1:33pm*

Muy Buena! It's so freaking nice out and my chipotle was fabulous!

Nothing more to report other than I have a progesterone test tomorrow, I'm currently 6 dpo (see already thinking about my dpo)... and about 8 days away from possibly testing.

*traffic update*

Driving to work can be sort of trying in the am because a two lane highway where everyone feels they are a "fast driver" and stay in the fast lane typically doesn't move very fast. This morning we had a unexpected traveler loose control of his vehicle but not his load... Personally I was looking forward to getting a little buzzed (dh was driving) before coming into work but oh well, maybe tomorrow.

have you smelled this?

Seriously go to Sephora, find Stella McCartney, smell it and you too might possibly fall in love. It's faint yet sexy.

I'm wearing it today and I've already had two compliments and it's only 10:30am! Go me!

Anyway, check it out!

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hes mayhem...

So my bracket is a little f-ed up right now but I'm in second place (for now) so bite me!

I have a chance of keeping second place but if Kansas wins I will probably move to 3rd. Either way, I rule.

Go MEMPHIS!!!!!!!!!!


My dh is hosting a bachelor party for his best friend tonight. As I'm sure they are basking in the glow of a dozen 21 year old strippers, I'm at home. Not that I would rather be with them but it's 1 or maybe 2am and my father in law & uncle are both snoring. I believe my uncle is the one that is snoring so loudly that it's coming through the floor and I can hear it in my first floor bedroom.

I don't want to bother him. However, I just wanted to write about how annoyed I was and how I wish I could just go up there and tell him to roll over as I do my dh.

good night. hopefully.


Musings of the "Crazy Cat Lady"

This prompted me to write about a neighbor of mine. She's not helping, she's continually hurting these animals. The constant smell of ammonia is just nauseating.

This woman has so many cats that you can't even tell (in the basement window) where one begins and the other ends. It's that bad. My dh and I have gone a walk and counted the cats in the basement windows before... we got up to 15 and stopped counting. How can one person take care of that many cats and how many of them is she really attached to? There is no way that she can love and care for that many cats at one time.

Plus she has other animals (dogs) that she locks up in other rooms of her house. I don't know why you would have a pet and lock it in a room or basement for it's entire life. It just doesn't seem right.

We must put an end to this *different* crazy cat lady because she's doing more harm than good without even knowing it.

ASPCA - Stop Anima…

the dash...

This was a poem that was read at Kim's funeral today by her son Justin.

I read of a man who stood to speak
At a funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end

He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years

For that dash represents all of the time
That she spent alive on earth
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;
The cars; the house; the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never lo…

breaking news....

Have you seen this????

awwww, yeeeeaaaa!!!!!

As this might be a reflection of my age, I (without embarrassment) announce that I've been on the edge of my seat waiting for this day...

*running to my closet, throwing on my NKOTB shirt, dropping to my knees, and screaming, "I LOVE YOU JOEY!!!!!"*

*Sigh* I feel so much better now. =)

a new found love...

We aren't set in stone, nor are we pregnant but this bedding is just precious!

The new Pottery Barn for Kids arrived and I just fell in love with this bedding...

What do you think? Gender neutral?

Photo courtesy of pbk


This week my "Works for me Wednesday" is not going to be a "greatest hits" task. Unfortunately I haven't been doing it that long.

This weeks item/task/helpful hint is: Clorox, Go Green Cleaner The best stuff ever! I highly recommend it!


In honor of April Fool's Day, I thought it would be appropriate to announce that I was pregnant. I actually did on thenest but it only got a few people. I thought for sure that the moment I typed my post and posted it that I would either be struck by lightening or doomed for negative results this month.

So just to clarify, I'm not. I wish that I was but I'm not.